Ever heard a cow that whines?

Back for a Quickie!!

2011-04-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. I'm finally back for a short update. It's been a little more then 6 months since I've updated..

Job is still good but tiring. Am currently trained for 380 but apparently not for long now. Before you know it, it bye bye europe and helloOO! America.

Kinda dread this change. Just when u get comfortable, seat all warmed up, you get things like that. The bright side is that I can now finally stop complaining about all the London and hong kong t/a that I'm getting or will get.

I've seen Paris and well, i can't say I like it so it's no love lost for me. Zurich, Zurich would be a station that I'll miss dearly. It may be a quiet station but it's a station where I truly get to rest my bones and have some 'me' time. People there are awesome too

Yup, lots have happened and I've no longer pen down my thots. However, lately I've been overwhelmed with things that I have no idea who to talk to.

Firstly, I do not wanna further irritate who ever has been listening to me whine n crap about things.

Secondly, I'm tired of second guessing myself all the time and constantly wondering 'did I say something which I should not have said, again?'

I don know what should n should not be, whats right and wats wrong anymore.

I have got so much to say but have no idea where to start. Guess it will be in me till the day I go 'ah ha!! See I told u so!'

updates from milan

2010-09-25T15:45:00.002+08:00

Exhaustion have been my best friend of late and the oh so many lonely days.

*emo emo*

Currently waiting for my mask to be done, grab a nap and it's off to lake como on a rainy, wet, cold Milano with barely enough warm clothes to keep me warm..

I'm screwed!

Updates

2010-07-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

Who say blog post have to be all long n lengthy?

New roster is out. Pretty decent I would say. However, trepidation is crippling me. Instead or all being hype up and eager for flight, I'm worried. I'm a newbie all over again! Business class, a whole new different standard totally.

Jeez, knew this day will come. Time to get nagged, bitched and screwed Shirleen. Like what the pilot will say in an unlikely event, "Brace for impact!".

The only trip that I'm really looking forward too is Taipei. I'll definitely shopped till I ~~Drop~~ ... collaspe. I'm just crossing my fingers that I will not shop my saving away. *ahem*

Can't wait! I wish it's August already. On the other hand, I also wish that time will slow down. Can you believe it's mid july already? Now, where did all the 'months' go?

Oxymoron much?

Can I be young again?

2010-03-19T19:52:00.004+08:00

You know how some time, when all your friends are busy with work and you, yourself are constantly meeting different people and not your own friends with the exception of only your family, it some how makes you feel like an island.

Although everyone is just a phone call or a text message away, it's still feels like you're all alone. The loneliness just seems to gobble u down into this deep dark hole. Some may argue, "but your family is still there what, what about those who don get to see them". Well, that's beside the point.

I don remember when was the last time I had a good laugh with my friends. Even though recently, i just met up with my cliques for a session of mahjong, it some how feels different. Or is it just me? It just makes me miss those days where, me and bestie stay over at win's place just to hang out and laugh at our own silliness.

I have no idea why in the world am I wallowing in self pity now. I have a job which most would like to have besides the weird off days (which I am blaming for the lack of social time), a family who is very supportive and friends who is always there if i need someone to talk to. By phone or msn.

Technology really deprive the human contact. Everything can be done in the comfort of our own room.

What I'm trying to say is, I'm missing the personal contact, the meet ups and the fun. I guess, this is what it means to be a grown up. Each have their commitments, responsibility and their life to lead. Each of us have got different drives and goal.

It's no longer like what it use to be. Those that will stay, will stay regardless.

Now, I know why there are people who keep saying they want to be young again. It's not really about the age but the things u do, the experience at those time.

I want to be young again.

A new life.

2010-03-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

What an eventful flight back from dubai.

All that had happened feel so surreal, a dream. I've never thought things like this would happen on me.

I've actually helped in delivering a baby. A newborn to this world. Her strong, soft cry. The mother grasping my hand for the final push. It was amazing.

Now, I love my job.

I've had it.

2010-02-14T03:28:00.003+08:00

I swear, I've had it..

I'm done trying to get what u think. I'm done anticipating your next move.

It's on words now.

Black n white.

I'm going to stop the butterflies nonsense.

Happy new year everyone. =)

fate

2010-02-02T04:20:00.000+08:00

Off late, fate have been the topic around me.

Does it really exist? And how do u know it when it comes knocking bring along a wonderful person or yet another lousy individual. This does not apply to relationships only. Friends as well.

Do you really believe in it?

Do I?

I really wonder. Frankly, I have no idea. It is said that when it come dropping down.. No matter what u do, u cannot avoid it. The people u meet on the street, the friends you make. Is that fate that brings 2 together or just coincidence and it's created by us human.

But then again, what's coincidence? Is it the work of fate? Or we creating chances for ourself.

Some people u meet are there to stay. Some not so much. They basically jus step into ur life and mess it up living a whole chunk of mess behind. Which by the way hurt u big time.

Life and it's mystery.

Am I thinking too much basically creating all the question for myself, hence the insomnia? Yup! I'm certaintly am.

Sigh! If only there is a official guide book to life: it's mystery and 1001 to save urself from pains and problems.

random

2010-02-01T20:25:00.001+08:00

just yet another pretty face..

Nope I'm not talking about me.

karma... yes... i believe so.

Random post... yup... u've guessed it.

RAHH

2010-01-15T04:17:00.000+08:00

I so FREAKING need to stop spending uncontrollably.. I'm doomed!

Storm of change.

2010-01-03T18:13:00.003+08:00

The one thing that I've learnt from my internship days in China, beside the major process of a textile company does for clothes to be formed is that when seasons change, it rains. Alot.

I told myself than that I will never splurge on clothes unnessarily. It's really a wastage besides money, material as well.

Sadly, the oath has gone down the drain like how memory fails after awhile. Not forgetting the fact I'm earning my own income and I ought to be saving more. I remember once, when m cousin got married, she told me it's really important to save up for it's really an expensive deal. Yes, San san jie jie, you told me that and I still remembered.

However, I'm guilty as charge for not saving enough. I know I could do better but some how, u'll just get sucked in, into this society where temptation is all around.

So much have changed but still, what needs to be changed have not.

Lately, I've felt like the 'dementors' from the 'Harry potter' books have been following me around. The life and joy are all being sucked out of me and I'm being consumed by emptyness and deep loathing to anything and everything.

No, it's not about work. Somehow the best time that I am having now is work, beside that, it's all crap. Off days are just days for me to sleep and run errands. Even when I'm home, I'm confined to my room.

Take for example, I met up with my poly mates yesterday and I was like the mother or all spirit damper. Yes I do know. I was constantly looking at my watch, was barely myself and it was awful. And when the cab I called jus left off without me, I was so pissed that i almost burst into tears.

It's not about the fact that The cab left and i was being spoilt for not being able to wait but jus the fact that things are all crashing in and that was the last straw.

I'm in this phase whereby I'm alienating and putting distance between my friends and I. However, on the other hand, I findd myself to be all needy and clingy. Everytime when I find myself getting close to ppl around me, it seems the further I get and the more I am unable to fit it.

Weird isn't it. At this age, I'm still worried about fitting in.

After being in this awful period, I've come to realise, it's the changes that I am trying to adapt because part of me, I'm really reluactant but on the other hand I really wish that it happens. Friends come and go, and we each have a life to go on. I used to pestered people to go out whenever it's my off day and then I come to realise that I'm being really selfish.

Who am I to make everyone fit in to my schedule?

Hence, I decided it really time for me to stop being selfish.

There's just been so much going on. In the past I still have my sister to talk to and thrash things out but lately, she may be around but she not really around around, u get what I mean? I beginning to miss her as well. Home is not so much as a haven for me of late. I have my resentments, alot of it actually, but who am I to make a point. Afterall, I'm barely home but i do have the dying urge to rent a place and move out on mny own.

This is just one of the storming season jus like winter breaking into spring, similarly, it's just me adapting to changes in my life. If any of u are wondering that is.

Odd Xmas.

2009-12-25T00:24:00.003+08:00

Ah, it's Christmas.

For the 1st time since knowing my bunch of friend, I'm home typing a blog entry. Every year, it would be up getting intoxicated at club. It feels so odd being home.

Moreover, with the job that I'm having now, it's really difficult for me to get off days on public holiday. I so wanna party and have fun with ppl who I'm really close with only to realize that my friends hates partying. The guys especially.

we ended up having steamboat and mahjong session at my place and them leaving home even before midnight. =(

Miss hanging out with my friend.

In fact, I miss having a life. Period.

I seriously have issues.

Am I all dark and twisty?

Chippy, the chipmunk

2009-12-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey!

It's me again.

man! I'm really losing touch with blogging. so many time, i would come here fully determine to write something but only to give it up for I have no clue what to write.

life's been good to me. work's good too. I'm starting to have a balance with my savings and spending. credit card bill is no longer sky rocketing that i have to wait for the next month pay check. Yup am proud of myself.

But But!

I'm so longing for a Chanel wallet right now. been thinking of getting it since 8 months ago and I'm still pending. =( 2.55 however and wait a couple of years more.

Shld I or shld I not?

Look at it! and tell me you don want it.

Sigh I'm a sucker for Chanel.

Anyway, I just got my wisdom tooth extracted. The pain was extremely excruciating once the anesthetic wear off. but it got bearable after about 4 hours or so.

Sadly I'm on soft diet now, which would mean~ all I get is porridge for all meals.

and also looking like a chip munk

Super attractive dont u think. BaH!

Huh?

2009-12-02T19:19:00.002+08:00

You know that u're on foreign soil when everything looks like this...

I guess I am just bored and have utterly no clue that is anyone even reading this..

Home

2009-11-17T17:18:00.002+08:00

Being able to stay home for a straight 4 days feel so unreal.

Flying in n out, then constant rush and being contained in a small area for a long period of time with the lack of sleep and what not, finally a caught on.

I'm down with a bad bout of cold. Coughing till I see stars and a nose that does not allow me to breathe through.

Flying back from christchurch and bless them all, the set of crew were AWESOME. They are all so nice. Anyway, I knew I wasn't feeling well but I still have to work back no matter what. Totally felt like I was ran over by a car by the end of the flight.

Head throbbing, dry throat, and all. You might think it's bad but NoOoo, upon descend, my ears were block and then there was a piercng pain. it was so bad that u can basically see that I am in such agony and everyone jus keep telling me what to do, giving me water etc.

Bless them, really. They are all such wonderful people. If only I can fly with them all the time.

2009-11-02T04:35:00.000+08:00

oh no!

is this the end of my blogging life?

2009-09-23T03:41:00.003+08:00

Shitney Shitney shitney...

Bangalore Bangalore...

Mel Mel

Bombay Bombay...

Haiz... what a month!..

Walk away despondently....

10 mins to 6pm (Gmt +6)

2009-09-09T19:41:00.003+08:00

Since I am utterly bored, waiting for 6pm to come 8pm sg time, I shall pen some of my thought down.

In just 4 hours, I would be a year older and I was thinking, what have i actually accomplish up till now.

A mediocre Dip result and went on to working. ok Maybe i did achieve one of my childhood dream and I may whine n whine about my job. But I'm truly thankful for this opportunityand what I really wanna do next is to get the chance to study overseas

Will I ever get to have this chance? I hope. But however at this rate of spending, I seriously doubt so.

Misplaced Trust.

2009-09-06T20:10:00.005+08:00

Trust is a very delicate yet strong connection between 2 people.

Be it family or friends.

Friends says that I have a poor sense of judgement in people and I can't help to agree. Look at most the people who I said are nice and end up utterly disappointed in. I have no right to be judgemental, I know that and what they do I shld not be upset or disappointed for it's none of my problem.

My good friend also said that "I'm easy to eat" if u get what I mean. Not in the immoral sense but more of a naive little girl who everyone can lie and cheat on.

It make me feel guillible, stupid and ridiculas. How many time have u gone away laughing, thinking.. Oh man! I got her again.

Although we may be friends and no matter how many time my peers tell me that u are a lousy person I still choose to stand firm in my decision.

But this time, it's the limit. Your actions are proving me wrong. Whatever u do, do not match what u say. Part of me wonder shld I confront u about it for u may have not updated ur bud's about it of u're just playing me. With all the crap that u say which I just laugh it off and pretend nothing is going on. But on the other hand, it's ur problem and none of mine anymore.

I'm totally rambling here but it's cause I'm confused and overwhelmed with the information.

It would be wrong for me to confront u cause it's totally none of my business but if u do really treat me as a good friend which u always say, then I think I deserve better.

All that I can say now is, I doubt I can take ur words for anything that u say or will say anymore.

Thank you very much.

Now, I officially feel like a fool.

A post a month

2009-08-26T01:32:00.003+08:00

For once, this is a post not related to my job.

Maybe it's the PMS talking that is making me all emotional, grumpy, moody and what not, somehow I'm feeling lousy.

It's time like this that I find that I lost myself somewhere along the line. Trying to pick up the bits and pieces of myself that is falling all over the place. Where has the old shirleen gone to? you know, the nerdy, geeky little girl who looks like crap.

Or maybe it's something else bugging me which btw shld be left unsaid.

it's also days like this when i think back.. am I trying too hard to keep my friends around that they will start feeling uncomfortable around me? Always bugging u guys to come on with me and maybe for some whom I really really cherish, I would get small lil something for them. Which to some, I might have hidden agenda. Trust me when I say I don.

When have I become such a needy person?

Something must be really really wrong with me.

random

2009-07-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

hmm... I'm still alive and kicking people.

My job kinda drains up my free time and the only constant update that I have is via twitter. I must say twitter is pretty much a big part of me now.

Anyway, it's been a while since I've updated. I seriously doubt anyone will be intrested in how unlucky I am or the fact that friends who I find are the nicest being on earth to have a series of unfortunate event.

Awfully relatives, crazy working colleagues and basically a series of things one would never want to have in your life. Although I know that she's extremely affected bout it, some how she still manages to smile.

Kudos to u girl.. I really think you're one person too nice to deserve all this crap, we'll just have to brace thru the dark phase.

Job is still good however, I am so freaking careless and inexperienced which cause me loads of blunders and at times ovre trival matter I get chided off.. Ah the wonder of the working society and the culture..

Inconsistence

2009-07-09T15:08:00.001+08:00

Man... I'm getting awfully inconsistent in blogging.

But how leh... I'm really tired and lazy. Every off day is so precious to me. I usually spent it our doing errands, Mani/Pedi or packing my room.

Ya, room is in a mess everytime I come back home..

I think u can deduce that from all the hotel pictures. I am so not a neat freak. Messy up the hotel is a way for me to feel more like home. So lonely u know.

K la i think if i continue on.. i'm gonna crash right here, right now. Been up for 26 hours.

Cairo pictures will be up real soon or maybe I shld Just like my FB link down.

>>>>>>Here's to FB<<<<<<

Vids: MUST watch.

2009-07-04T01:00:00.002+08:00

Damn... these clips sure do brighten my day.

We Belong Together!

Touch my Body!

The guy still look so confident at the end and throughout the song.

Indian Thriller!

Seriously! what are they thinking when they did this.

Been so long.

2009-07-02T15:15:00.002+08:00

I've just realise that it's been awhile since I have actually written anything up. However, it's not much of a difference la, with the standard of english that I am using and the abrupt ending for almost all the post, having photolog and whatnots is the best.

So much have happened on this flight and I've come to realise that the culture here is so different and complex that one will unknowingly step into a mine field. Backstabbing and rumors fly faster then the plane.

Conversation during breakfast made me wonder what the fuck have I gotten myself into. Some people are just basically insane and out to drive everyone bonkers.

At the split moment I have the dying urge to just give up but the debts will be insane.

How I wish I am back to school.

Photos of Cairo will be up once I am home. Weather was insane. If SG is hot, Dubai and Cairo is hell on earth.

Ciao.

Crapz

2009-06-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

Pre-Flight Syndrome
Symtoms:
1. Unknown origin of Anxiety and Uncertainty..
2. Lack of Confidence, and self control..
3. Toss and Turning before work, unable to rest..
4. Uncontrollable sighing, and deep breaths..
5. Haunted by Past experience and memories..
hence unable to perform somehow..
6. Unknown Humongous amount of Fear..
7. Emotional state highly unstable..

Adapted from Keagan's blog.

Which I have it for all my flight. Not forgetting the nagging feeling of me forgetting important document for flight and if you guys know me, by now u shld have notice that I'm not a very sociable person when I first meet people. Which infact made things ten time worst.

Moreover the experience from the previous flight was such an experience that it will be engrave in me for the next few flights or months to come.

Got to be up at 3.45am later.

Ciao.

Photolog: Amsterdam, Holland

2009-06-14T23:56:00.012+08:00

I think I'm gonna make this post filled with pictures with minimal caption. So get your snacks ready, sit back and start scrolling. =)

As usual, the state of my room is always and constantly will be in a mess. Makes it feel more like home.

The small toilet that always leak when I turn on the tap. All in all, a very good place to rest and I was sleeping like a baby throughout the stay ;)

Do u see the metal pole sticking out at the top of the building? It is known that the stairway for the building is so steep and narrow that one can hardly move their furniture up or down hence, a pulley is used by hooking on to the metal pole and they are being moved from the window.

Cool huh.

Big Tasty burger which cost S$7 without meal just the burger itself. Oh~ and when they say it's big, Believe it. It's really BIG.

With Jerrica and Christina

Country side. Edam windmill and cheese farm tour =)

This is what it looks like inside of a windmill. They are actually extracting peanut oil for cooking and the left over are really rock solid and is used to feed the cows. Oh and the stronger the wind, the faster the oil is extracted.

The Clogs workshop. People from the past wear this for all sorts of occasion and events. Fishing, Skating, walking. You name it.

If you think my feet is huge, try this! Traditionally, it was handmade and the whole process can take up to days or weeks for 1 to be completed. Now it just take 5 mins for the shape to be up and it's left in the over to dry. The art of technology.

Now, I officially look like Ronald Macdonald.

Even bigger clogs.

I can row this to Malaysia.

This would be a very good place to retired once I am old. Fancy having their tea house in their yard. Imgaine going " hey there mate, would you like having tea in the tea house and maybe for a swim in the pond? It's in the yard and you can always jump out of the window if you like"

Damn cool la!

Anyway, all this were done on the 2nd day of me being there. On the very first day, we immediately concuss in our room and eventually meet up for a late lunch. With only a table occupied, we thought it might be a quick one but NOoOoO.... it took they 45 mins to and hour for our food to be served.

We waited till we are no longer hungry and some of us wanted to flip the tables. Haha. But once we had our meal, we decided to "explore" Amsterdam by going to the well know red light district.

Women an scandly clan bikinis can be seen on display by the window, literally. The are not manniques which we thought they were at 1st till they started moving. Rows and rows of sex shop can be seen and some even advertising that they have live sex show. All for the price of 30euro.

It was an eye opening experience, I must say.

Now, I am waiting for the next Amsterdam trip so I can go shopping =)

So, That's all folks.

Till again.

Photolog: Beijing

2009-06-07T23:53:00.005+08:00

Back from Beijing.

The moment I hit home I felt so light headed and exhausted that I slept at 6pm to 12 am, woke up for my meal and then continue sleeping from 3am to 1pm.

Seriously, u can't call me a pig. in 48 hours, I only sleep for 4 hours.

Anyway, here are the pics~

Alright then, that's all folks.

Au Revoir.

Time to blog again.

2009-06-02T19:02:00.005+08:00

After a 5 working hours with me waking up at 3 freaking 30 in the morning, I'm still feeling apprehensive and not forgetting tired.

God! I feel so much like a sotong, a super big one infact, on my first trip. Pages from my Bible falling out, faux nail got deattached (can only blame it on the manicurist or maybe they wants to see me really badly) super uncertain on what to do.

Extremely lost was flashing like a road warning and hence making me super quiet. However the crew were nice and did not made things worst. Else this sotong would have cause a major boo boo like the carts flying out of the plane (Any thing can happen you know).

Now, I am once again feeling apprehensive for my next flight.

Anyway some pictures to share.

Mount Faber. The three of us practically rot our noon away there doing nothing but being lame, take pictures and pespiring.

Shafiq: "Ahhhh faster! Faster take! Very high sia! Scary!!!"

Table for 2?

I took this pic and I think it's really nice in a way. haha Only model not nice la.. Wasted.

Also, here are some of the photos from the mini gathering that we had at The central, Taglio resturant.

Ahem!

Alright, that's all folks. If my next flight is good there will be more pictures to come. Else I'll be sulking in the room and wallow in self pity with loads of reflection going on.

Au revoir!

Closing of yet another chapter.

2009-05-24T12:59:00.010+08:00

Alright!

After such a long hiatus, It's jus a hundred over pictures to update, no biggy. -_- Within such a long break, so much has happen. Both my TP and my CC graduation.

It's hard to believe in one short day I able to attend 2 graduation and a mini dinner celebration. This is going to be a photo filled post.

On with the First graduation.

Followed by the next graduation...

The rest of the Pictures can be seen in facebook. So people, get a FB account already. hahaha

1st flight.

2009-05-09T16:29:00.002+08:00

It's only the first flight and I suffer burnts from the cassroles, got cut by god knows what and a broken nail.

What's next?

p.s super sleep deprived!

Bah!

2009-05-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time!

Yes yes I know.. Been really busy lately with work and guess what! Before you know it, I'm going to hkg later in the afternoon.

I can only say that I hve mixed feelings for it. For I am having butterflies in my stomach at the very moment just thinking about it. I'm afraid that I would screw up and then Boom there goes my job.

And now, my phone is actually dying on me! how depressing is that. It's actually less then a year old and I am realy reluactant to bring it for repair cause it will take me a month for me to get it back.

I wanna get a new phone with a new line but I am so broke that I believe i have to munch on bread loaf for the rest of the month!

Ugh!

Mess.

2009-04-26T13:35:00.003+08:00

This weekend have been one hell of a weekend.

Will this feeling every cease?

Crazy?

2009-04-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

Surprise, surprise.

It's been a long time since I had the time to blog so many times a week.

Having Assessment/Exam tomorrow is like so unreal. It seems that I have done studying but there is this feeling that tells me you are not doing enough. I'm just so sick of studying plus this is one of the weekends where I feel totally like crap and lonely despite having family and friends around.

I guess it is just one of those days where you mood plunge to the lowest and you feel rejected by everyone.

Am I thinking way too much or am I just insane?

Whatever it is, I just hope it passes soon. Not forgetting the training as well.

Update, Update!

2009-04-17T23:55:00.005+08:00

Hey hey peeps.

In 3 week times, I will be flying off to different destination. Anticipation and fear seem to come together when I receive my schedule.

And keagan kee, YES!!! you are so hated by many of us. RAH!!! Going to Paris on your first solo and it being the last of the 777 fleet.

Anyway, I am going to Auckland for my first solo. I am actually contemplating whether to try bungee jumping or not. I think the probablity of not doing it is freakingly HIGH.

Alright, some pictures to share.

Girls from my Batch mate head on down to Zouk to let our hair down after all the exams, training and whatnots that we have to go through to prepare us for flights. Gosh You have no clue how tough this job is.

The girls: Catherine, Carol, Me, Widya and Yvonne.

This is us after having too much to drink. Drowning 4 jars of vodka while playing 5,10.

I must say the trip was fun however, there were times when I was so pissed that I wanted to just slap the hell out of the short guys on the dance floor.

On a totaly different tone, here is a really unglam shot with me in overalls.
Blue overalls.

Tada~!! That is me post jumping of planes down a steep long slide! Scary but super fun.

Alright I'm out.

Just Another Day.

2009-04-14T19:02:00.002+08:00

Like the header reads, It's just another day at work.

Jumping onto a slide that is 1-2 stories high. Fighting fire, going through lectures after lectures to prep us for the near future also not forgetting, more news of exams coming up.

Life has been so hectic that I just realise. I've ben working for almost 2 months and my supernumery flight is coming up. I guess it would soon be my 1st solo to the many exoticc place that I can only once dream about.

True, I've yet to be confirmed but at least it would be an experience. Moreover, what are the odds of me getting another chance like this?

Anyway, TP grads falls on the same day as my graduation. How in the world am I going to go? It's time like this I wish I could be at 2 places at once.

hurZ!!!

yoohoooo

2009-04-04T15:28:00.003+08:00

So it's been a month and more since I last came in to pen a piece of my mind or just to share anything with you ppl. Apart from all the spammers on the tagboard of mine that I am getting my blog is actually dead and a place where dust settle on.

Anyway, the month went by in a flash, with me all busy and sick and what not. I had to drag my sick body to work despite running a high fever on Monday and Tuesday for exams.

However, it's not the only exam or Assessment which they call it, to see what we have learnt. it's would not the be last. There is actually more to come and hence my disappearing act.

Whoever says it's a bimbotic job, I'm gonna to take my 3.5 inches heels and hammer the person. The first person would be me for I always thought that it is a bimbotic job.

Well, anyway since that is no nice pic to upload I shall end my post here and hope that I have to time to come back in and post again.

Tata!

Busy

2009-03-01T20:37:00.003+08:00

Daily routine (NS Style)

0500: Rise and shine, Shower

0520: Morning regime

0525: Warm up (Make up and change of outfit)

0630: Physical Training ( Fighting with hair for the bun)

0720: 2.4 km run (Rushing after bus then train then bus to STC)

0830: Sign in and commencment of lesson ( Trying real hard not to concuss)

1730: Beat the office crowd for bus (to no avail)

Been busy busy busy!

Will blog ASAP when I am free. For now, I shall scare you guys with a picture.

Ubin leftover.

2009-02-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

Rash from UBIN! (plus 2 injuries from the fall I had there)

GAH!

Been kinda busy lately, will post up Ubin pictures ASAP when I received it.

Toodles

Dilemma for a Worrywart.

2009-02-18T14:40:00.003+08:00

Is never a good thing, i'll say.

I guess it's time I let the cat out of the bag with the reason on why am I in such a delimma. As much as most of u know, the period of time is where all of us are deciding to work or continue pursuing a degree. And my initial delimma is whether to get into a local uni (which I highly doubt that I can enter with my cGPA) or into a private Uni which cost an exorbit amount, most probably an arm and a leg, to futher my education.

To add up to this delimma, I finally recieved the call I have long waited for.

The call?

Yes, the call. The call from SIA that I went for the interview, last November. Due to me being in school, it took them 3 months to get back to me and it's extremely last minute I would say. So I've been notify that training starts on the 24th of december and suppose to be down at the training center to sign the bond with them on the 19th, which is tomorrow.

Am I happy about it?

I would say yes for that split second but after awhile, I start to realise the shit hole that the economy is going through right now. I mean it really look as bad as a mouldy bread and even smell as bad as a rotten egg. Even SIA is cutting flights, thinking of cutting pay and possible retrenchment.

Should I really take the risk?

As shallow as it may seem, SIA is something that I would like to do since young so is University, doing psychology. Friends is telling me to go for it as it is not somthing u can do when u are 30. It has an age limit. Whereas university u still can pursue it although it's through other alternative instead of the local UNI.

Hence the dilemma.

I've got less then 24 hours to actually decide on what to do.

what's right and what's wrong?

Will I regret it if I miss the chance?

I seriously have no idea.

Last day of school!

2009-02-15T14:38:00.005+08:00

12th of Feb

Dinner at Popeye

Bruises!!!

2009-02-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

Hur Hur!!!

I need my dosage of House of night series...

Anyway, school has officially ended today (12th Feb, 2009). I am, once again, hitting yet another crossroad of my life. I have no idea what am I suppose to do. Part of me really hope that I can get into local uni which I can pay it with my parents CPF. The other part of me hope to persuit my dream.

This is the reason why I absolutely hate crossroads. Abso-blardy-lutely abhor it.

It seems that the path of our future lies at this point of decision. Whether are u able to flare like a firework with this 1 given life or be just mediocre and achieve nothing. It's not about becoming someone important like the President or a CEO. It's more of a self fulfilment, whether you have achieve what you want to achieve in this life.

Everyone of us have got an ultimate goal to achieve before we die. Be it a good housewife, see the world, be the best vet 1 can be or even a good provider for his/her family.

The 3 years of my poly life has concluded nicely. The last few months was unexpected and utterly fun and enjoyable. However, sadly all good things, similarly to the bad comes to an end. It's a bittersweet ending of a chapter in my life and equally bittersweet beginning of the unknown.

Regarding the future, I'm filled with trepidation and the path before me is blur and unclear. Will I be able to pick the right choice for my future?

At times like this I really wish the wise guy above, looking over all of us will at least show me what is in store for me. Which I believe will make thing much easier.

Crossroads!

If only our life is planned and we can achieve what we all want without worries for cash, future and dreams. It might not be a bad thing with him providing us the chance to decide and choose but now, I really wish things are much more simple.

p/s: To mark the last day of school, I actually stayed around in school with friends and had a wonderful dinner filled with lameness (teletubbies, one piece, ultramen~ go figure!) and laughter that I bet I and starting to have abs. Pictures will be up pretty soon.

Rides.

2009-02-11T17:13:00.010+08:00

I can't tell how much I have been enjoying myself of late. Been going out on such regular basis that I think my parents, expecially my mom is freaking out. Wondering what the Heck is wrong with the daugher who can stay home for a freaking year and only going out like once every 2 months.

Ya! That happened to me when I was retaking my O's. I didn't even went out to work. Basically, I was just rotting at home for that entire year.

Ah!... those wonderful days.. Which I do not want to experience it again. Totally wasted like a year of my youth.

Anyway, here are the things that I have done lately and the events coming up next.

7th of Feb, Sat - Shopped till I burnt a hole in my wallet.
8th of Feb, Sun - Movie and driving around Sg.
9th of Feb, Mon - Shopped till I burnt a even bigger hole in my wallet
10th of Feb, Tues - Went to school, screwed up my quiz and went for dinner and road trip with my fellow TP mates.

Upcoming,

23rd of Feb, Mon - Ubin Trip!

So here are the pictures for the 8th of Feb trip.

After watching "Underworld, the rise of the lycans" which by the way is the most gruesome show, ever. We spent the rest of the time at e-hub, playing arcade. Bzz, Ya I know, I don't look like the arcade kind but it's once is a blue moon thing. Maybe twice.

Competiting to see who will be playing Para para!

Then it was down to Jalan Kayu for supper. Pratas and Rojak, fit for 6 person.

And then, some how we ended up in Genting, whereby the wind is freaking cold and strong.

So that's all folks,

Till I go out again, which I believe will be soon.

More pictures can be found on Facebook!!

Yayness to Facebook.

Frantic!

2009-02-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

Oh No!!!

I spent yet another bomb today.

$40 on a mascara.

$22 on a crystal tear eyeliner.

$50 on a pair of sandal.

$33 on a jacket/coat.

Oh no!!!

Some one please stop me!!!

Like seriously!!!

Shopping!

2009-02-07T23:56:00.004+08:00

Hey, people! I am back to blog..

In a week time, or should I say in 5 days time, we TP-ians will be known as graduate, unofficially. Till the day we are back in school to collect our diploma certs.

Oh man! These 3 years went by just like that, in a flash. I think lately I have been talking about this so many times till I think I am really becoming a Whiny Fat cow.

Anyway, to celebrate the end of all my project and the what nots despite having 2 more quizzes and 1 possible interview next week (which I highly doubt that I will be choosen). A hardcore shopping is in order!

I actually bought all these items in the span of 5 hours! No, make that 4. All this chalked up to a whopping 150 bucks. Thank god, for gift certificate that I received on my 21st birthday.

One day, heavens should really rain cash n notes in Pounds and not Zimbabwen dollars. Seriously.. Zimbabwe dollars are like freakingly erm... useless? With SGD 1 u can actually buy Z$ 1.6 octillion. OCTILLION leh! I have never come across value that go way pass trillion and here we have Octillion.

How many zero's can Octillion hold? Octillion is like 10 to the power of 27 lor, it's like 1 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000. And an egg actually cost 50 billion,50 000 000 000 000. If you knock of all the zeros and divide by 50 for the egg, you can like buy your own chicken farm plus maybe a duck and pig farm can! With Sgd 1 bucks.

Imagine we would to sell our hdb flat here and move over there I think am like the freaking something-illionair lor. And any Tom, Dick, Harry, Sue, Ann, or Mary who goes there will get kidnapped and ask for ransom money. If you are interested to read the report, here it is.

Anyway, really kudos to the person who caused this. At least on the brighter note, he is still optimistic for this is what he said "What keeps me bright and looking forward to every days is that it can't get any worst."

Duh! You have to actually knock off all the zero's from their trillion to make it into single digit. Can it get any worst?

Just before I end this post, here's a cute phrase that I wanna share and also keep for my own when I actually re-read all my post.

"Whenever you feel you are useless, just remember that you are the fastest sperm out of a million...."

Toodles!

Shirleen is (too much FB-ing)

2009-02-05T20:37:00.005+08:00

really upset with her parents!

Like seriously!

Am I always that unreliable? Am I not able to take care of myself? How long do they have the intention to keep me behind lock door for? Till I am 50?

Pissed!

Fucking Pissed!

Don't you just hate it when your friends are happily planning to go overseas for vacation, be it some place near and when they ask u whether would u like to go and you are definitely eager for the trip. Than your parents have to ruin it all by forbidding you to go.

It's freaking annoying and UGH!!! there is no words to describe it!

What is worst is that one of the main reason for not allowing me to travel with my friends is because, if they would to let me, my sister would follow suit.

So, tell me who should I be annoyed with? My sister or my parents or it's just my luck that I have overly possessive parents (which is still my parents). Or they are just dragging my sibs in so that I have be upset with all of them together!

Or maybe my Freaking ANNOYING brother for interrupting the conversation by saying I will only be allowed to go at 25. (It's SO fucking not funny ok!) If this continues on, even if I would to have all the money in the world, I would not be able to see the world till when I am 80 and dead!

Only then, maybe I can travel as a wondering spirit. Plus if after-life really exist. See, I can't definitely even do that!

I understand that all they want to do is to keep me safe by not allowing this trip since they are not by my side to care and look out for me but seriously! I'm fully a legal adult who is capable to make myself grow fats during the 3 months stay in China and them not being by my side not even losing a single strand of hair (apart of me brushing them).

I can't even travel to neighbouring countries such as Bintan, BATAM!!!! (can you believe it?) or Genting alone with friends. Not even Johor, mind you.

I have no idea how many times i have disappointed my friends, cliques and all, due to this.

I know, I am currently acting very childish and throwing tantrums like a god-forsaken teenagers (who I said I hate most). But can you blame me? And I believe if I would to bring this up to my mother, she would tell me "You are not yet a mother, so you would have no idea how we feel."

Great lor!

Win le!

How am I to argue back?

If by being the eldest in the family meant that I cannot travel or just plainly do stuff till my sibs are officially legal to, then u know what.. I doubt I can go anywhere till I am 34 when my brother is officially a legal adult.

Then thanks! but no thanks. I am willing to let thi spot up for anyone who thinks that being the elderest get the best in everything. More like best in taking all the blames, high expectation, scoldings, being the perfect (as perfect as 1 can be) rolde model.

You know how much stress there is?

I can go on and on an on ranting about this but it will go no where so I am going to end here and hope that I don erupt on my parents.

FREAKING-PISSED!!!

Weirdos

2009-02-03T13:58:00.003+08:00

To reveal the mystery of my pervious post note. Click Here!

I was laughing to myself so much, thinking how deluded the person who imitated all those people. I mean come on la! lol It's so obvious.

But then kudos to the person who actually manage to come up with this an combining so many different writer's, writting style.

Alrighty, I think I am going back to have my coffee and my project.

Tata!

CNY ..

2009-02-02T23:41:00.006+08:00

As much as I have been going on an on about the unnatural lost of excitement and anticipation for the lunar new year, I think I'm am doing pretty well with the monetary section.

When over to Edwin's place for a round of steamboat. It was actually pretty fun, good company, lame game, good food and lost a great deal of money in blackjack. I lost about 7 bucks within 30 mins. Since I am not some one who gamble (knowing that I suck in it that is) this is the highest lost that I have accumulated in 1 game in my life.

Anyway, here are the pictures for the trip. I think I was really hapy about the meet up hence there a quite a number of well taken pictures, despiste some of it showing my lumpy body.

You know that your friend is crazy when he decided to put on so many watches n accessories.

Plus 2 glasses and many more necklaces.

Big head Serene.

ok tata! I'm deadbeat.

P.S: Was reading several blogs. It's weird to find ppl with similar writting style. Odd isn't it, people vying to outdo each other, nothing seems to be original anymore.

Random

2009-01-30T02:14:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh!

My week has been so boring and mundane that I wanna kill myself.

Hmm... actually, to think of it, I don't really want to do that. I like the simplicity of things around. Waking up in the middle of the day (after lunch time that is), on the laptop, set my bottom down on the chair and starting surfing the net and watching series or I will be on my bed, re- reading my novels and maybe channel surf a little.

Bottom line, I'm been bumming around at home and lolling on my bed.

Yes! I think I can hear Harris's screaming that I am married to my bed. But's it damn good to spent time with my 'husband'. The two weeks before this I was so darn busy that I actually neglected him and I think he is feeling the tension between us. Every morning I would wake up with bruises on my knee. Damn sad can. See even my bed have moods.

Anyway, I eventually have time to watch American Idol and I think the novelty of it is beginning to wear out on me. Ya, it can be funny when some people are so extremely tone deaf and they are still insist vehemently that they are the next American Idol. I mean come on, I for 1 know that I am so tone deaf that I hate singing. In public. I still do sing, to my pillows that is, when nobody is home.

And then, there is the sob stories of individual. Well, I know~, it's an opportunity to let the superstars wannabe to shine.. like the one I had (Which of course is not singing) and they produce people like Jordin Sparks, The 2 Davids, Kelly clarkson..

Ok, you know what, I think I am begining to contradict myself. I better stop. I'm jest being random and finding things to write about.

Oh right! Lately I've been hooked onto Army Wifes and I actually finished watching the 2 seasons in a week. And I am still waiting for my Charmed.

Oh Oh! Now, I have this delimma because I want to get back something from this person but then the idea of meeting the person kinda disagree with me. Reason being, I'm ashamed. I have been thinking of so many ways to explain but there is never 1 way which is good.

Darn it! I think I deserved it for putting myself in this situation.

On another different note, I am still waiting for that blardy call! When will the call arrive? I am harping on it over and over and over again to myself that I think is it driving me nuts! Even my mom is asking me about it. Jeez!

As random as this post is, I think I'm ending it here.

Oh well! what can I say, Random is my middle name. So is procrastination.

Ciao!

Kids today. Kids yesterday.

2009-01-25T00:41:00.006+08:00

You know, I just came back from the hypermarket and I seriously think I have a problem with kids ages between 6-15.

Yes, lower secondary school student, to me they are still kids. I mean I do not have problems with those really gentle and obedient one or to some, the geeks and nerds. Anyway, I was at the hypermarket and there was this girl about 6, whose fingers are so itchy, that she practically destroyed a packet of mushroom luh! She was pinching the mushrooms head to mish mash. Can you believe it!

I wanted to snatch the packet away but before I could do it, she walked away to her mom. Oh my god! At that instant, I have a dying urgh to 'Piak' her hand lightly and tell her not to do it.

Yes, yes, they are kids. But what the heck. It is still not their property to destroy. Now who is gonna buy the spoilt mushroom? Her parents? I seriously doubt so.

I think I am sick!. I can't believe I hate kids. I guess I have be hanging around 1 that gets on my nerves day and night relentlessly. That kids, to me now, who misbehaves just totally gets on my nerves.

Anyway, away with that un-pleasantry, there are some pics I wanna share during the event of project stress.

The first pic wanna share is...

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Shafiq! Haha! The guy who everyone loves to hang around with unless, of couse you get really, really irriated with. Kidding pal! haha. He actually place his laptop bag on his head for a period of time la.. Lol. He even did some freaking dumb things like bowing his head like a japanese saying goodbye or dancing to the music with it. Gosh! You're the man.

Anyway, the pictures that all come after this are no longer funny. That's the only funniest pic have. I tell you stress makes up do stupid things.

Ok~ and I am putting this up is because I want to know who took this? Shafiq! must be you right. This is actually after me soaking my dearest ear pieces into my coffee and they were telling me not to get too work up and be suicidal over it.

And luckily for me, my mentor from China came back home recently and I got him to get me this! Oh man, you have no idea how much I missed Glico's pejoy chocolate stick. Been munching on this throughout.

I'm so glad that we have finally submitted all the report and now we are left with all the minor stuffs like presentation, interview, programming and quiz to do.

Ok.. that is still like alot to do but at least not that bad I guess.

I am so gonna miss the last 4 months of poly that I had, despite all the unpleasant things that I had to go through initially. It made me learn alot. Although it still doesn't seems that I have changed, I am still as demanding, sometimes rude and insensitive. I am trying to be a better person. Well, the first step to change is by admitting it.

I'm SooOoo Gonna miss you guys man! And we are left with only 3 weeks.

Time really do fly when you least expected it.

hur hur! how?!?

Deadline at 5pm.

2009-01-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

Everyone is stressed and doing last minute work. Me, I was out being a klutz, soaking my ear piece into my 3rd cup of coffee.

Now, my ear piece not only smell of coffee.. (Mm... coffee flavour ear piece, intriguing, must be delicious) it is a ticking time bomb to ruin.

Crap.

odd.

2009-01-21T22:44:00.003+08:00

Me: Mummy, can you believe that I'm getting denise to help me with my work
Mom: *ponders for a bit*
Mom: 我看啊，这三年来，你这三个月比较象有读书。
Translate - I think among this 3 years in poly, this 3 month you look more like you are studying.
Me: Huh!

Great so what have I been doing all this year? Can anyone tell me that?

I guess only when I procrastinate all my work to the end, than working my ass off, only then she will see that I am studying.

Oh well!

Crossroads

2009-01-18T23:16:00.004+08:00

In about a week time, all of my project will be submitted. In this period of hectic-ness with everyone in a state of frenzy, one can't wait for it to end so as to heave a sigh of relief.

But, once you begin to think about it, it would be really soon before things come to an end. In fact, in about 5 weeks time, Badabing Badaboom, I will be school-less.

The what's next?

I have actually went to interview for a job which some of you might already know. However, since no confirmation was given, I have no wish to disclose it just as yet. You know, just in case I jinx it myself. It is just something that I want to do since I was young but what about education?

Making decision is what I'm worst yet. The pressure of conforming with the society like getting a degree after diploma by 25 and so on. Once in a while I am very sure of what I want to do next but ever so often, I'm confused.

Should I delay my education for a couple of years which by then I would be 24-25 before I go get myself a degree and then it will end at what 27 - 28?

Gosh that is old. I'm worried. Many would know that I worry way too much. But I really am. What about the following stage in my life of having a family. My own family. As often as I said that I have no intention of having 1 or getting married but let's be frank who do not need companionship?

Alas~ Life is about pursuing our dreams and opportunity like what I had, only come only so rarely. Cliche much? But that is what I usually tell people when they would to ask me what I want to do. I do not want to regret making the wrong decision.

Should I pursue my dreams or should I conform to the society which is basically my comfort zone.

If I would to go ahead with the route of University, What should I pursue?

Initally, I have all the intention of doing Psychology but many advise me not to as it is something that you have to go all the way, like PhD?

Me?! Doctorate of philosphy? More like permenant head damage!!!

How in the world can I achieve that. Plus where do I get the capital or the time for it? By then I would be like what? Mid 30 to 40?

Should I get a double major if I would to pursue it? I'm currently considering Psychology with Business but... Sigh I have no idea.

Cross roads!

To conform or follow my dreams?

It sucks. My future is really in a blur.

I really wish that I am a guy at this moment. At least they do not have youth limitation. The older they get, the better they become. It's alright for them to get married late but for the females, they will be know as old maid.

GAH!!!!!!! I hate this world and their rule.

And now, I have to get back to my never ending projects.

Grams, if by chance you get to read this where ever you are, tell me what should I do for the next step and I also wanna say I still really misses you alot.

Love you grams.

Dumb move.

2009-01-16T21:30:00.009+08:00

In this period of time, every TP student are rushing to finish their projects on time with deadline in just days. Not to mention my group is too.

For the past few days, my laptop is my ultimate best bud. I would have no idea what would happen to me if it "touchwood" crashes. This is us being really hard at work. working on Service Quality's 5000 words report.

Or so we wanna make you have the impression that we are indeed doing it. Obviously I wasn't since I was walking around taking stupid pictures.

But lo and behold, our working on report eventually became playing of counter strike. Good job mates!

All five of us were having so much fun that we made so much noise (well especially me of course, I die I scream, I win I scream).

Hence, we are left with much to do over the weekends since our ultimate aim is to finish this damn project by sunday so that we will be able to move on to the next project with the same deadline.

But guess what, I'm actually wasting my time away blogging and reading up people blog. Not forgetting getting hooked to my cous's blogging about my adorable nephew.

All is well, except that I have such hilarious group mates that most of the time I'll be laugh so hard that I could feel my abs forming. Or could be so mad but eventually will still end up laughing really really hard.

And then today! My beautiful mouse decided to die on me and I had to go get a new peachy pink mouse. Sigh!

Anyway, despite all the projects and quiz, we were also required to browse through recruit to look for a job so as to come up with a cover letter and resume for Career Communication. As my printer usually works well on any other day, I decided to print out my resume so as to save time but only to find out the the printer ran out of ink and my photo looks horrible.

I decided to submit that copy as it is without reprinting it since it was just a brief check before the final marking since I know I would be editing it and reprinting it all over again. Save ink save paper.

What I had in return got me laughing till I was out of breath and even till now thinking about it never fails to crack me up. I would never have expected a lecturer to write such a thing which made it 10 times funnier.

The lecturer wrote:
"Poor Photo. U look as green as Incredible Hulk. Pls get a better photo!"
HAHAHA!

Go have a good laugh! I know I did.

Goodies from TP

2009-01-16T00:41:00.003+08:00

Oh yay!

A new year! and TP just totally made my new year Super Duper exciting. Just like a road trip to hell good.

With the upcoming deadlines, assignments and quiz it will be a miracle if I do not suffer a nervous breakdown.

3 Project deadline next Friday, with Service Quality 5000words report, Supply Chain 15 page report (which till now, I have no clue what is needed nor the format is like) and CRM audit which requires programming.

2 Quizzes, with 1 down and 1 to go and no time to study.

Yay Me! Yay TP!

It's the biggest 'ang pao' one could ask for, for CNY!

New year, New clothes!

2009-01-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

Yup!

Just like that the title said. Getting new outfit to help me battle the new year of rollercoaster ride.

Anyway, to the measely amount of female readers we all understand that online shopping is the way to go.

This is a spree which I cam currently going to for my occasional shopping itches.

Pick Ur Choice
http://www.pick-ur-choice.blogspot.com/

I would say the seller is actually quite nice to shop with. She's friendly, reliable and patient. Even when I have trouble with my order, we would eventually come to a optimal decision that benefits both parties.

I would recommend this site into your list of online sprees. And do check back for I believe new item will be up quite often.

End of the year post.

2008-12-31T21:30:00.002+08:00

The year is coming to an end yet again and it seems to end more quickly every year.

Now, It's time for another end of the year post.

2008 has been a really unexpected year. The most memorable event of the year would be the trip to China for my internship and the passing of my beloved grandmother.

If anyone would to tell me when I first enter TP that I would be going to China for 3 months for my internship, I would have die laughing. But surprisingly, I did have the opportunity. It was really an eye-opening experience that I will never forget.

Although it was only a short 3 months, I've got to see and learn new things that I would never have the chance to if I were to stay here. With independence, it brings responsibility. As much as I miss the people and life there, although I can't say the same for the spitting and foul smell of BO, I would do it all over again.

Then, it was my 21st bdae celebration. Man it was the messiest, busiest week of my life. And that, that is something that I would never wanna go through again. Although it was good to meet up friends who I haven't seen for donkey years but no thanks. I was so busy that I alnost died la! Plus, after the age of 21, I'll be forever 21 haha.

Then it was the passing of my grams. It was really hard for me to let go of her but circumstance needed me to. I cried so much this year that I am starting to hate the new me. I get moody when everyone is happy, when she was sick, I worry for her which does no one any good and then I cried somemore.

By now, I believe everyone is so sick of hearing me talk about her and I feel equally as bad when I have friends constantly telling me it's ok, we understand but it's just not right. I getting really naggy you see and it totally spoils the good vibe.

I still do miss her badly. Afterall she was the one I go to for extra hugs and kisses and when I was in China, I would call her and she would constantly ask me when am I coming back. Even after me telling her the date and day thrice. I know now that she is in a much better place with what the family is going through now, conflict and all, I'm glad she would not be seeing it for it would hurt her terribly. Therefore, I'm feeling much better now once it had sunk it.

Next, it would be me finally getting my driver license. Like finally can! I've spent enought to get myself a new mac book with the amount I spent for the lessons and test. Goodness. Now it's left to convince my parents to let me drive and me learning how to park without poles. Hmm maybe I can get 4 human poles for me to park? Volunteers anyone?

Finally, it would be xmas celebration. Xmas celebration this year was like no other. Gathering with coursemate in sentosa, had a blast with ball games and tossing of one another into the sea then it was getting drunk with cliques. It might be norm for some but not so much for me. I've been drinking so much this year which is kinda freaking me out.

I guess that's what 2008 was like for me. I had the worst time of my life but also the best. Isn't it what every new year would bring? What's coming up next we can only plan but what actually happens it's beyond us.

Resolution for new year is so overrated. Do we actually achieve any of it?

All I want for next year would be graduation and if things goes well, I'll be working for my college fund. Else it would be bank loan and off to SIM.

Happy new year everyone!.

Happy new year grams, I hope you are happy where ever you are, Love you!

Pain in the ass

2008-12-28T18:42:00.003+08:00

Throbbing headache, stomach cramps and a 2500 words report to be submitted next week!

I'm Dying here!!!

Can my new year get anymore interesting?

Happy-lousy-new year everyone.

Quote...

2008-12-21T17:36:00.001+08:00

... of the moment.

"It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy

New do.

2008-12-17T17:40:00.006+08:00

Now, I'm back to being old and boring.

No more strange lion hair color.

Ciao!

Crapified!

2008-12-16T16:30:00.003+08:00

Shit shit shit...

I've sent the email and yet they said I nv sent.

Then I realise I might have typed the wrong email add.

Argh!!! and she was so bloody fierce.

Sigh...

Birthday post part II

2008-12-13T23:29:00.006+08:00

I suppose this post is long overdued, but here it is.

Too much have happened. Laptop crashed, reformated, Quiz, Major porject, term test, lose all my photoshop and now I finally got it back.

Ade, cammy, ser and me~

With Suba and Nanthiniy!

K607! with ah roy!

The East Viewen!

Qing qing, Eryn, Jacq, me, Esther, Amos and Bing wei

So that's all folks. No much words for I've let the pictures do all the talking.

Toodles!

Fun time

2008-12-13T01:05:00.006+08:00

So people, missed me?

Anyway, it's been 2 weeks since the day I cremated my lovely grams. Although I still do think of her frequently and crying for her, I'm getting a little bit better. It's all part of the route of healing and time is the only thing that can help.

I'm coping and I know I will be fine.

I love you, grams.

Apart of all this depressing times in my life right now, I think I'm getting along with my class a little bit better. Pray that things won't nose dive after me admitting it out loud. It always happen when I official say things like this out.

Just when we are all graduating, I am loving my class now.

Badmintons and arnoldchicken-ed right before our term test as it we have all finished our papers. Standing in 2 rows facing each other outside arnoldchicken saying "Thank you, bye bye, see you again" to people who just came out of the toilet.

Tell me, are poly student so stressed up that they go bonkers or is it just us? In my opinion, I think it's just us. Wth.

And right after our term test paper on Thursday, we all (all 13 of us) went town for Bolt. The movie was great with all of us singing ' I thought I lost you' as it's the only line we know. However, since we had such a big group, dinner was by the road.

Okay i'm kidding, we just got food and settled down some where outside for our meal. Pathetic, but fun. What to do when there is so many of us.

The picture of all of us without Shafiq. Ok I shall not be mean and post a full group picuture.

There you go!

All in all I had fun but it's a damn hard time coordinating with so many ppl. A really big Project.

So that's all for now folks.

Will be back soon.

Toodles!

Random

2008-12-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

Oooh guess what.

I've fallen sick again.

I failed my NAPFA by 15 sec cause of my 2.4 when I actually passed the rest.

Now I have flu and I have no idea shld I or shld I not go for a run tomorrow.

Next, I totally embarrassed myself on the phone due to some job application thing.

Ugh!

Plus I'm missing my grams every day and night.

Buzzz

2008-12-01T15:55:00.001+08:00

NowI'll say...

Good Riddance! Major report!

and hello~ term test, more project!

20th Nov'08, 04:34:12

2008-11-22T14:31:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

Will I forget how you look like?

Will I forget your voice?

Every now and then I could still hear you telling me to be 'Guai' and to take care of my parents or that I could still hear u saying 'Orh' when I tell you I'm going home to rest or when I leave your wake.

Your touch, your hugs, your laughter will be forever etch in my mind.

As much as I want you to stay, I have to let you go.

Image of you flashes through my mind like lightning, bright, sudden and uncontrollable.

The day before you passed, I tried waking you up, but you did not budge.
The day I saw you being carried on a stretcher to the hospital.
The day you hug me on your bed when I told you we are all worried after one of your worst week end, telling me everything is alright when it is not.
The day that you had to lean on me jus to sit up.
The day u recongnized me and told me you wanted to give me something.
The day when you were laughing so happily till you had a stomachach for you called my uncle 'Toilet door"
The days when I go over to you place in between class break to accompany you. You told me your stories and I cried with you.
The day you came over to my place to stay and you had a bad chest pain, you told me not to cry and jus to apply ointment for you.

Those days in my childhood when you would rather get us to stay over at your place instead of going to ths student care for you know that we don like it there. you will buy us snacks and ice cream. You will hug me when my sister bullied me and pulled my hair when we were young for I don't fight back. When it rains, you will carry me knowing that I was afraid and stand by the window to look at the lightning.

I will miss you badly.

I will miss you telling me my childhood stories even when u repeat it over again.

You have gone to a better place and I can no longer feel your touch. You wil be a part of me no matter where u are.

I love you grams.

Hospitalised Again.

2008-11-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

Grams got hospitalise again.

Went over to her place after school, only to find that she was looking pale and in great pain. Watching her being taken away by the paramedics is a really heartbreaking affair. Knowing that she is hospitalise is one thing but seeing her being placed on a stretcher and and being wheeled to the ambulance is another total different thing.

Her maid cried and I almost did to.

I gave her a kiss on her forehead and 5 hours later at 2.30am this morning, she was warded, moaning and deluded. Part of me was exhausted, wanting to head back home as school starts bright and early the next day. On the other hand, I wanna stay by her side and skip school entirely just so that she would not be alone as she longs for human contact right at the moment.

Thinking that she will be better when there is constant care provided by the nurses and doctors we admitted her in but things were not as what we hope it would to be. She looks worst and barely ate the whole day today, she do not recongnize anyone of us and she is still in great pain.

Her laughter, her smile, her calling out to me, and those time she took care of me when I was young with the extra hugs and kisses are flashing in my mind constantly. She is all I can think and talk about. Hence, tears has been my best friends lately.

Being by her side is the most important thing in my life right now. Neglecting my friends is not something that I want to do but I can't help it. Maybe I have a choice which I know I do, but now all I want to do is to be selfish for her. This is the only little thing that I can do for her right now.

I'm sorry if my posts seems to be centered around her and it's all dank and gloomy. I love everyone of you and want u guys to be safe and not go through this if possible.

Good Night!

Digging my own grave.

2008-11-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

Shit, I just realized that the project that I chose to do was really chim-a-logy and I don't see my self picking anything else.

Should I challenged myself?

On another note, I'm confused and overwhelmed with everything that is going on in my life. I think I am going to explode soon and being hooked to Stephanie Meyers, Twilight and it's many volume is making things worst.

It's gonna be a hell of a month for me.

Sigh.

Love my grams a lot, she's super cute today.

Lousiest Weekend.

2008-10-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

This weekend is pretty much a weird and lousy one.

My grams gave everyone a scare on sat when she sink in and out of oblivion. No matter how many times or how loud everyone of us call out to her, she would not rouse. For a minute we were playing scrabble the next everyone is solemn and dead quiet and everyone is crying.

The weird thing was, I barely shed a single tear and was walking around consoling my cous and sister. I guess, I believe that my grams will come round as it's probably just one of those days where she is extremely weak. I was right.

She was feeling much better on Sunday but somehow she is starting to have erratic behaviour. It was a whole new level of experience for me with the 'new' her. I've always know her to be the person to turn to for extra hugs and kisses, sometimes sweet treats. But being scolded by her for something that I never did was really heartbreaking.

I know I can't blame her for that but it's just so unreal. For a minute she could be laughing happily to u, which by the way will be etched in my memory for a long time, the next she would stare at u with deep hatred.

And today, I'm nursing a bad cold and working on my assigment dued thursday.

Sigh! what a weekend.

2008-10-22T18:35:00.003+08:00

School has started and the madness rolling in like avalanche.

It will be soon before long that I would say Au Revoir to the freaking school and start loathing work just like any individual. But the thing is, will I be able to get a job while we are in an economy recession.

So much for graduation!

Birthday Pictures - Part 1

2008-10-02T21:39:00.017+08:00

Hee! I know this is way, WAY~~ overdued but here it is!

The pictures from my 21st birthday. I wouldn't say I did not enjoy it but still I did not enjoy it as much as I thought I would. It was quite hectic for me. All my friends came pouring in and I have no idea who to entertain first. But damn! I'm sure am glad that most of you guys made it. Family and friends! Love you all peeps!

Day 1:

We checked in at around 2pm, getting ready for the night of bbq. I was really shock and surprise when I saw the newly renovated bungalow.

I have ever been there once and this is what it looks like before.

Lo and behold! This was what awaits me when I stepped in.

Ever since then, this is my fave bungalow to book for any occasion. *Decorations not included. We basically spent most of our time watching Friends on DVD late into the night. There's nothing like watching Friends with your friends.

Dad got started with the pits upon arrival while I was huffing and puffing away to inflate all the balloons suffering phobia after that with all the balloons bursting in my face.

So after a whole night of entertainment, which I regretted not taking pictures with all those who turn up, for example, my mom's friends. But I manage to take pictures with several important family members and friends.

Family picture! Lise, the lady who takes care of all our needs. My dad, the one who work hard for the family trying to give us the best in everything. My brother, the little terror of the house who causes mayhem everywhere he goes, without fail. My mom, who at times can drive me insane but still loves me regardless of what. My sister, the rebellion but sweet girl. And then, there's me! The girl with BIG dreams but no motivation.

My cousin, Leon whose birthday is a day after mine but 1 year older and his beautiful girlfriend who is so sweet and love the chili my dad made. Who can actually dip bread into the sauce and eat it okay! Bravo!

This cousins! I must say this is not even 1/4 of all the cousins. Oh well I guess with a big family, you can only have so many who is below 25. The rest are all married with kids as big as my brother.

Day 2:

While waiting for Gary, our chauffeur to arrive, we spend our day on the beach. It was cloudy and windy. Perfect for me who do not wanna be tanned.

And when a bunch of girls who have so much time on hand with 2 cameras, it can only mean 1 thing. Truck loads and Trucks loads of pictures.

Sweet and elegant Cammy who have already started work. My buddy and driving khaki, Serene. And flat face leen.

Being silly and airing our armpits. Ha Ha!

The crazy photographer wannabe who is making Cammy work the wind.

Serene, shooting cammy, shooting me who is trying to make a jump. Omg! Cammy hair is so long! and I look damn weird.

Emo-ing. Nah! I'm just looking for fishes.

Basking in the wind, since there is no sun. It was so nice that they actually stayed in the position for a good ole 20 mins.

So sweet right!

Damn odd, I know but I manage to get a mid air shot ok! I had to jump like, 10 times for a mid air shot.

Cammy's mid air shot.

We also did a 4 simultaneous shot using 1,2,3,4. Lame I know but we had fun doing it la. When Gary finally arrive, we all got so hungry that we head all the way down to IMM for dinner and collect our spree stuff.

Day 3:

Cammy had an interview today so both Serene and I were left with nothing to do and hence we went for a swim and a game of pool, which I lost miserably.

No shots of me playing pool since I suck in that sports! But there is this babe to show that she is really happy to win.

After the game, we decided to go for a swim instead of waiting for them to come back.

A shot before our swim...

Both of us changed and were ready to leave and boom it started raining.. zzz

And it rained some more. This is what happens when we do not go with the plan. Both of us were staring forlornly at the pool hoping and praying that the dark clouds pass really soon.

Once we had enough, we came back and take more pictures waiting for the both of them to return.

The fun eventually begins when both Gary and Cammy came back. We headed back to the pool and played like any 3 years old kids who see water for the very 1st time.

Once night falls, we headed out to ECP for our dinner and came back with another round of game. We were suppose to drink but funnily that very day I felt that everything was bitter and we decided to have each of us draw on the losers face.

Gary a.k.a Mr Potato!

Yes! I look like crap but I'll become pretty again. Anyway, they wanted to sabo me since I'm the birthday girl but to no avail. I'm just too quick. Haha.

From these 2 pictures you can see that who is the biggest loser. It was a freaking hilarious game with lots of stupid stuff done and most of it, if I would to post the pictures up Gary will prob skin me alive and peel my flesh to feed the dogs.

This is me, let them draw on my face for just cause it's my birthday. Sheesh.

There you go, Laugh!

Mr Potato! with a messy face.

Miss PCK! haha

And last but not least Bao Qin Tian. =)

That the end of Part 1. I'll continue part 2 as soon as possible. This is like the longest post ever. I'll get the rest of it up as soon as possible since it is like the core of this whole topic. Will be back once my Photoshop is back aye?

Very abrupt end. I know.

Toodles!

-

2008-09-27T20:26:00.002+08:00

Every goodbye I said, I wonder is it the last.

Every goodbye I said, I'm biting back tears.
Every goodbye you said, I wonder is it you leaving.

Every situation you narrate, it place fear in me.

Every situation you narrate, your children(my parents and relative) laugh but I'm biting back tears wondering how could they still laugh and joke with you about it.

Every time you fail to recongnize me, I'm biting back tears.

Every time I leave, I would ask you to take care and you would ask me to be good to my parents. But you don't listen and then you fall.

Every night I sleep, I would imagine the worst.

Every morning I wake, I wonder are you alright today.

Every phone call I receive, I pray it's not my parents calling to deliver a bad news.

I can't imagine days without you. It just takes 1 more high blood pressure before your condition becomes critical. I want you to go on forever.

Yes! I'm selfish, I know you are suffering, locked within a weak body but I need you to go on forever. I need you.

Stay strong, Grams!

I don want you to go anyway, anytime soon. Please.

Living The Life

2008-09-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

Ho Ho!

I believe it's been way too long since I've last blog, and I have got a gazillion photos to upload. My trusty laptop decided to crash on me, so I'm gonna get it fixed tomorrow.

Anyway, Life's been really good for me apart for being way to broke. Waking up at 4pm everyday. I've actually become noctunal. The good thing is that school is gonna start on 20th oct and my TP will be on 30th oct. By then it will be time for the rest of the driver to look out for this reckless driver.. Hopefully!

Anyway, I promise I'll upload the pics soon ya.

Toodles.

2008-09-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

Lappy crash... Will be back to blog asap.

hmm

2008-08-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

Yay! my very 1st present from my granny!

I miss my nephew! i guess I'll get to see him real soon so I guess now it's a busy time for me to send all the information and the map to the destination of my upcoming chalet.

Ciao now.

Screaming myself hoarse.

2008-08-23T16:17:00.002+08:00

Getting my brother to 学听写 totally made my home into a war zone.

I bet with every dollars and cents in my bank account that six floor down on the ground floor, if you would to stand there, U can totally heard what I said as if I'm just standing beside you.

Totally Shitified. I bet my neighbors thinks that we are abusive sisters who scream and shout at out brother for no apparent reason. I don even have the courage to look at any of them. Totally throw my face away.

All he does is made my life a mess.

shall end this post with a pic of my nephew and then sour up my mood more by giving him more 听写 and meet the upcoming deadline for my Presentation. UGH! Just hate being home.

2008-08-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

It's off to see my baby nephew tomorrow!!

Photolog

2008-08-03T17:45:00.005+08:00

Oh My GOD!

The weather is ABSO-BLOODY-FRICKING-LUTELY horrible.

It's humid and warm and makes me feel totally sticky. Yucks!

Right, to start things off, here are the pictures for Amos bdae on 25th july.

It was meant to be a surprise but I think we did it 1 too many times or should I say we are not creative enough cause we did this for almost everyone. Hence he wasn't surprised by it and actually had to fake a very extravagant shocked look and screamed his head off.

And on the 1st of august, I was out with my girls and we decided to head over the Singapore Garden Festival. I was a little apprehensive about it initially but I sure am glad I went ahead despite it. Not only it was a beautiful place, we three took picture like we have never seen a camera before.

The price of the ticket is 6 bucks person but some how with student pass and passion card, it's down to 2.50 person. We are a bunch of aunties. I guess I will let the picture do the talking. These are some of the pic that I picked out of of the 300 we had. Haha!

Click on the picture for larger view.

ALright that's all folks!

I will be back!!!!!!!!

STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!!!

2008-07-23T16:49:00.002+08:00

You know, it's depressing to know that someone is on the path of quiting smoking and is actually clean for 3 weeks but only to find her getting own pack of filth stick when she had a tiff with her boyfriend.

It breaks my heart and it totally pisses me off.

What's the use of doing this stupid thing when u know that he wouldn't care right at the moment. Is this the way to get the attention that you are looking for?

How naive can you be?

Wake up my dear.

It just remind me of the stupid thing my "friend" did back in secondary school days. Just cause the guys she fancied did not return the feeling, she got herself a can of beer and drank it.

Come one la! what do you think that 1 can of beer would do? Suddenly make him realize that he cannot afford losing You and then reciprocate the feelings?

Well, if you hope that is the case, drink it INFRONT of him. Not behind of him, under a HDB flat.

I hate the fact she smokes. With her not smoking, we stopped having rows. Now, it's all back to square one. The rows will start, she will start to reeks with smoke all over again. Rows about her smelling like crap. Rows about her reeking the toilet up right before I am about to use it.

Fuck it! I hate Smokers. For those who think smoking is cool and make you adult like and allows u to have the attention you need, ought to get whack by my laptop 5 on each side of your face.

This is what relationship does to one.

It make us stupid. It make us become idiots unknowingly. It is not because I have a high expectation in my ideal guy that made me single.

It's because I do not want to dumb, stupid and an idiot. Until I know I am confidant I would not be an idiot and handle things maturely, getting into a relationship is out of the picture. And that could possibly mean Never.

hmm..

2008-07-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

I really have no idea what to blog.

I guess the most happening thing that happened to me this week was meeting up with my cliques.

Finally got to see Edwin, with is muscles and all. haha. It was pretty amazing as all this while he's home sitting infront of the com playing games all the way so naturally there was no muscle. Now, he's all tan and fit. oh, oh and he's botak head is good to touch too..

It's was really quite fun to be able to meet them up for supper. The laughter, the joke, the odd silence.

Alright then i guess that is pretty much it. It's FTT tomorrow so wish me luck~

My Sunday is a BLAST! I Wish!

2008-07-13T13:58:00.003+08:00

As much as I love to say that my Sunday is a blast, however I can not, as I am here in my room still under my comforter typing away for this post.

Everything just falls into back into place and my being away was like a dream from a deep, deep slumber. My mom is back to ignoring me and only after several attempt of tapping on her shoulder she would then acknowledge my existence and me wanting a convey with her.

I would be sleeping to 11am or 12 pm. waking up to find my dad gone (to my grams place), my brother disappeared (to my neighbor's), Mom using the computer an sis who is still sleep and will only be up at 2pm.

Everything out there changes but not within the 4 walls of my life. To think that there is a saying " The only thing that is constant is change." Imply that on my family and boom it will go all the way down the sewer.

Anyway, ever since I am back, I have been spending like money runs off the tap. This week alone, I probably spent a total of 500 bucks. Imagine that. I got myself a new Handphone, a new MP3 - Samsung YP-T10, a wardrobe organizer from Ikea and 3 novels.

I so need a job, a life and maybe a rich husband (anyone up for it?).

Sigh, and it's off to gym tomorrow need to lose of the extra fats.

*Dead panned* Can my life get anymore interesting?

P/S: Ever felt that you always fall for the wrong person? Ya, me too.

Super Cute!!

2008-07-11T00:08:00.003+08:00

The Picture that made my tears welled up. So cute can.. and she looked so sad.. Must be the Sick owner! haha I am kidding.. No offense ar!

Anyway, I got myself a new handphone. Like finally can. I got myself a Sony Ericsson C902 and this is the kind of picture it takes.

I would say Not bad for a camera phone. love my very own red C902. ^^

Skyrocketing expenses

2008-07-09T22:03:00.002+08:00

I was reading an article from a couple of days back regarding weddings.

Comparing wedding now and the past, it is definitely much more expensive. Having skyrocketing prices of item such as oil, rice, water, electricity and basically everything it's a miracle that people are still getting married and forming family.

Even the lady being reported had nightmare regarding money problem. Everyone wants a good life when married. A car, a house and a good career. Now tell me with everything skyrocketing how do 1 actually does achieve all that?

Maybe I am still a child at heart being naive or maybe I am being realistic. At times like this, how would u know that the person you are marrying is the right guy for you so that you would not put the money you have invested on the wedding to waste by getting a divorce 2-3 years down the road.

I really admire what my parents did to have us and still give us a comfortable life. We may not be rich, in fact we are only average in the government eyes.

So what is love, actually? How do you know he/she is the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with? How do you know u really really can be committed to this relationship with that certain person.

Diet

2008-07-08T19:53:00.003+08:00

I think it's high time I go on a diet..

These trip had gained me weight which i have nv ever, Ever wanted!

sad.. plus I've been having runs ever since I am back from china... HoW!!!

I'm going to slap myself whenever I am hungry and stop myself from eating too much....

Ok I'm going to have my dinner now.

Random Pictures

2008-07-08T13:19:00.003+08:00

People watching. Literally~

Ice blended Mocha or Ice blended peach?

Ice blended peach it is! I love peach!

Kopi Dao (Coffee bean).

ohh~ flood. it's ankle deep.

I am absolutely sick of threads! Seriously!!

All the stuff that I have to drag home!. Way overload. all Mine ok.

Cold Stone Ice cream!! I wan. My mentor still owes me ice cream.

我回来了！

2008-07-06T01:58:00.009+08:00

三个月过了，我回来了。

没想到着三个的时间过的那么快。妈妈说我胖了，朋友说我变cheena了。虽然在回家的路上有点依依不舍，散心难过。But the moment I saw my parents, the moment my phone is flooded with msg from my friends, all the sadness and reluctance faded away. Home is definitely where I belong be it through the good times and the bad.

Being in china for 3 short months I've come to realize that my English had deteriorate so much that it's scaring the crap out of me. This 3 months may be attachment period but it felt like a 3 months worth of holiday despite being really busy at times and having to do O.T till 8pm or worst 10.30pm(but i enjoyed myself when we OT-ed till 10.30 pm that day). It was really a good 3 month.

As much as I love it there, home is still home. At one point, I felt a great sense of helplessness for I have lost my freedom and the time for myself.

Solitary time is really important to me. It give me time to recharge myself, reflect, reminisce and just plainly enjoy the quietness. Sometime being around everyone for 24/7 requires me to put up a mask to hide my true feeling.

I admit, I am headstrong, I always want to have the last say, I snap easily and i like things to go my way. I ain't perfect. I don socialize well either. These 3 months made me realize I either have to try to accommodate the majority or I can be the girl that no one wants to hang out with during playtime in kindergarten.

There's no such thing as being yourself. But who am I to try to please everyone I know? Why do I have the desire to please everyone I know when I know that it's gonna make me feel like crap after that? Am I suffering certain psychological disorder?

When you have enough shit in your life, you just want to cut off from all this nonsense. I treasure the people that crosses my path, I chose to believe that they are good till they screwed everything up.

I guess it's high time I stop condemning my self. So what if you are the sort that do not have a high social profile. So what if you only have a couple of friends who will be there for you be it good or bad and does not get angry when you change plans at the last minute. They are the ones that matter.

Jeez, I think I digressed way too much. This is what solitary time does to me after 3 months without it.

Anyway, say hello to boo boo 1 and boo boo 2.

This is what happens when I try to heave a 33kg luggage on to my trolley. Not forgetting all the muscle ache I have after that. Well, of what little muscle that I have that is.

being on the plan on my way here, I was filled with reluctance and were practically gloomy on the 5 hour trips back. 3 months may be short but friendship and attachment had been formed. Be it with the ah yi at the hostel, the driver that drove us around to place that we want to go, staffs in the warehouse where we did all our projects and last but not least the management team that took care of us fastidiously.

When we work till late, they will be worried that we are hungry and they shoo us home or bring us out for lunch/dinner. They would also bring us out to places of attraction despite being there before. Although we all may not be very very close, they still treated us like part of their family.

Yi rui Jie, Fu Ling Jie, I'll miss you guys. (if you are wondering why is it a pic of them and esther it's cause my pic is still in fu ling jie camera).

Yi rui jie, I will miss the time when you brought us to the Korean restaurant for lunch and then to the wet market to get the extremely sweet and juicy honeydew and peaches.

Fu Ling Jie, I will miss the finally week with you. Us in your factory doing the hundreds and hundreds of threads and you getting xiao cao to visit us ever so ofter for u worry way to much. You're afraid that we do not have enough water to drink, you worry that we are hungry and decided to end work earlier then you usually do. You bringing us out for lunch and dinner jus cause it is our last week here and you laughing at all our silliness or our so-very-unfunny comments. We really enjoyed doing the packaging when you are meeting a deadline despite being totally exhausted.

I would miss everyone there! ~.~ Poh fong jie, Flor, Chui Ling, both Ah yi who help us cooked all our meals and the Ah yi who washes our clothing for us.

I would miss Guang Quan Jie. The shopping district that make Bugis Village look minuscule and where we used to hang out at every week ends bargaining and chilling at starbucks, people watching.

I would miss looking like a auntie with not a care to my fashion sense for there will be no chance where by I will meet someone I recognize on the street. Heaving my bag of loots all around banging onto people for people there are plainly rude as well.

I would miss having my bags filled to the brim with cheap goods and having ppl asking me where am I from so I can lie through my teeth saying that I am from all sorts of places that I have never been too before.

I would miss shopping at AuChan and Carrefour weekly, spending hundreds of renminbi on snacks and munching on my Glico products such as pejoy and pretz.

This chapter of my life have come to an end. It time to create a new chapter moving forward and remembering the good times when I am down to put a smile on my face. It's fate that bought all of us together. It fate that allow me to meet you guys.

If only...

If only... good things do not come to an end. But sadly all good things come to an end.

Vid

2008-06-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Something to entertain you guys with since I've been gone like forever and won't be online for a week or 2 more.

Oh! and guess what!

I'm left with SG$40.00 for the rest of my stay here. I'm officially a dead meat. Credit card is of no use and I just pray that I am able to withdraw money from the DBS bank here since there is no ATM. Even UOB would be nice too..

God! please save me.

Home

2008-06-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

It's been a boring weekend. It was this way last week, and so is this week.

So what if it's a public holiday tomorrow. It would still be the same. Staying home, watching drama online, sign in onto MSN waiting for people to chat with me. It's boring. I need to get a life. I need the life I had back home. Going out as and when I want to and not seeking permission. I need to have the ability to make decision on my own.

Gosh! I wanna go home.

Just bare with it a little more and I will be home soon.

I am coming home.

It's Picture time

2008-05-31T15:42:00.006+08:00

Hi Peeps, I promised pictures didn't I. =D

I spend 4 fricking hours putting the pictures together. Of course I can't actually put everyone of them up since there are so many of them.

Alrighty, I shall start it off with the Suzhou Amusement Park pictures which is way, way over due.

Being here have made me willing to take up the thrills of roller coaster ride and the crazy ride in in the center. Believe me when I say I never really like those kind of rides but now, I'm longing to have another go at it, if it wasn't so freaking expensive.

The next trip that we went was to this area called Mu Du. It's just this area where by the place is left untouch retaining it's old traditional housing and shop houses. Even the rain didn't stop us from going but we came back with our jeans wet and shoes dirty.

Anyway, at this trip, we (meaning Esther and I) got to know 2 new guys both based in cambodia. Leslie and Kelvin. Both of them are really funny I must say. Although there are here just for here weekends, it was really nice to get to know them.

Yup! On may 25th, it was Esther birthday. A week after Mu Du trip.It was just a simple celebration with a teddy bear Ice-cream cake. What can I say, we were all tired. Hmm really makes me wonder how am I going to celebrate my 21st birthday. I'm getting old, time is zooming by really fast. I'm so afraid of what am I going to do next. I don't even feel that I'm an adult just as yet. So, so not ready.

Okay! The recent trip we had was last sunday. It was to this place called Nong Li da Shi Jie or something like that. But before we went there, we had our brunch at Winsun which is really near to the movie theater that looks like Esplanade on the inside but looks like a bird nest on the out side. Hence it is called the Bird nest. Serious!

The dim sun was fanta-bulous. With the ambiance of the place. All I can is WoaH! The place was so class and 'Atas' which you can only experience it in places like Raffles hotel and such. But it's actually quite affordable. After calculating, if everyone of us were to pay for the food, it's about 20 sgd. I'm missing the food there already. Yum-O!

Right, 'Nong Li Da Shi Jie' it's just a farming ground with fruits for you to pluck, activity and stuff like that for you to enjoy. We manage to do so much there. Scroll on down and see for yourself.

Plucked mulberry.

Ate it and cross a pond through the swing-bridge.

Slides and bumper car.

Horse riding!

Team building.

Plucked corns. It was really really the sweetest corn I've ever ate.

And Strawberries. We were very lucky to even find them as the strawberry seasons are over. The field smells of strawberry, the moment we walked into it. I finally got to see, smell, pluck and eat strawberry right from it's source.

That's all folk!

2008-05-30T11:21:00.001+08:00

Backsteet Boys - How did I fall in love with you

Remember when, whenever we needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understand we'd never be alone
Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Who will want say this life
That it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this life
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna stay the rest of my life

Chorus:
What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, remember you
How did I fall in love with you?

Ahh!! This music is stuck in my head.

Anyway I promise to blog tomorrow. Swear!

2008-05-15T18:57:00.002+08:00

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." Anatole France.

Shanghai Trip

2008-05-10T11:44:00.008+08:00

Alright people, it's peek-ture time again.

Anyway, I'm serious I can't view my own page but I can blog so I can't reply any tags on my tag board. So sad can. The tag board is like the soul of this whole blog. It would mean I can't communicate with people anymore~ I'm an island! T_T

Ok~ Early last Sunday morning, we set of for Shanghai as Mrs Ma the wife of the owner of this whole big-ass company was here for the last day. So, it's a shopping trip for us. It was rather depressing to find it raining la.

Basically from what I heard when it starts to rain really often it means the season is changing so spring is ending and the nightmarish summer is coming. It can actually have a high of 42 degree. Imagine that! getting roasted just by stepping out or even staying in. Thank god I will be back home by then. Thinking of the crazy weather back home scares me so much already. After all I've been here for 1 months plus with a terrific cool weather.

This is Shanghai for you. The roads are like maze. There are road side stall everywhere, just imagine vehicle drive by with black harmful exhaust and dust, lands on food and you eat it. Sound delicious don't you think? Haha, but I would wanna try it 1 day maybe on my last day here.

Anyway, so we stop for lunch at this really nice restaurant. The ambiance was great. It was once a art gallery if I'm not wrong but whatever it is, it serves great food. Yes and we are all patiently waiting for our lunch to be serve albeit exhausted.

Once after lunch, we went on a shopping rampage. Everyone of us carries 3 - 4 bags. It was rather chilly hence we are either putting our hands in our pocket of folding it. It wasn't posed just for taking picture. We were actually standing like that for about 5 minutes.

Yes, yes! The landmark of shanghai

Finally, we went for dinner. Once again it's seafood. They have such a wide variety that it's a little scary. When I say wide, it's really really wide I think if I would to put up the pictures, all of you guys will lose your appetite.

Hmm maybe I should.

There you go. This is only 1/8 of the whole assorted variety. Tell me, do you dare to eat the seafood on the 1st row 3rd picture from the left? It looks very erm.. scary and it gives me goosebumps just by looking at it.

Okie dokie~ I shall end my post here will be back next Saturday if I would to have any more pictures as It's highly impossible that I'll be going anywhere this weekend.

p/s: My friends who were in Myanmar are going back today due to the cyclone. What an experience gain although a tragic 1. All 4 of them are safe and sound that's the most important thing.

p/p/s: I'm broke for this month. Mummy~ haha

p/p/p/s: Esther is coming back on Monday!! Yippeee

whee

2008-05-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

Oh OooOooOo

I CAN POST!!!

but I can't read/view my own page. tsk tsk.. sorry guys... will blog when i have the pictures from shanghai.

I bloody spent 250 sgd there in 2 hours.

It's a total of 11 blouse/shirt for summer wear, 1 skirt and a couple of accessories

I'm broke~

Mummy!!!!

Why...

2008-05-03T21:34:00.006+08:00

Something unexpected happen.

It's never meant to be and will never be.

Sometimes, things just fall on you and get out of control no matter how well you can control your life, what you want to do, what time you wake and what kind of achievement you want to gain. It's not controllable.

whatever it is, it'll be over when I'm home.

I Just hate it when things go out of control. It's so not my style.

Putuo shan pictures.

Grab a soda and some snack, there are loads of pictures coming up.

5 hours road trip to Bei lun and 1 hour 30 mins of ferry ride to Putuo shan. It sound like grape mountain when we heard it initally. Anyway, we had lunch at a seafood resturant. (I seriously lost touch in blogging. I've got no idea what to type and how to type it!!)

Anyway, The ferry smell of perspiration and cigar. Mind you, people here do not bath everyday. Yes, so you can get all sorts of funky smells and mix it with cigar you get the true authentic "nan ren wei" which is freaking overwhelming. You have no idea how glad am I when we finally reach out destination. FRESH AIR!! never smell better.

Within 5 mins, we were whoosh to our hotel. Great view! it's actually directly infront of the beach. Took trucks load of pictures. Everything went well till our tour guide came. Man! she really have a serious attitude problem. She was freaking fierce and showed us a super duper black face for the entire week ends. Hence, whatever she said after that was shut off.

Views like this, we don't get it very often. City girl will always be a city girl. Most of the pictures are taken by my roomie~

That very night, after all the traveling and the drama, we sat by the beach and had a beer or maybe a dozen of it. Got kinda high, I sure am glad that Esther was there. I was lucid but walking in a straight line was impossible for me than. Yes, yes, anyone who is drunk will say that they are lucid but I really am. The very next morn, cable car ride to the mountain top to another temple. Please don't ask me what's their name. I can barely read it.

Once all the traveling is done, we headed back to Bei Lun and had lunch at 老板娘 restaurant. Fabulous I tell you, the BEST chinese food every apart from being too oily. Everywhere, over here food are flooded with a layer of oil. the amount of oil can last us 1 month.

The very next day, Monday, Esther received news from home that her grandmother passed away. So she's off for home on Tuesday and will only be back on the 12th.

On Thursday, it's a public holiday, I have no idea what holiday but all I know is that Carrefour is the place to avoid if you do not want trouble. All that I heard was, there will be a protest going on. Anyway whatever is it, it's none of our problem, we headed down to somewhere ( I don't know where we went you see, all I did was just follow) to have seafood again.

It was scorching hot but the sea breeze is damn great. You can actually feel the warmth and the cool breeze all at the same time, like 1 side hot 1 side cool.

After a quick tour round the beach, we arrived at this villa with mudan flower. Sadly, we were late. All we get to see is endless and endless of soil. The weather is so different as compared to when I 1st arrive. T.T no more cold weather. The temperature differ so much day 30 degree, night 17 degree.

Anyway, if you guys are thinking of catching a movie, "Iron Man" isn't bad so is "The children of Huangshi". The movie by Jackie Chan and Jet Li is really a waste of money.

Alrighty, It's off to Shanghai tomorrow morning at 8am. Will blog again soon, which will most likely be next saturday. See I happy not, I happy I bring camera if not my lousy handphone should suffice. ^^

Night night Y'all.

When I'm bored~

2008-04-30T13:44:00.000+08:00

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.

You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

Putuoshan

2008-04-25T22:52:00.001+08:00

It's to putuoshan for the weekend people~

Au Revoir~!!

Grey Sky Noon!

2008-04-22T16:29:00.006+08:00

Good afternoon y'all.

It's been a cold cold start of the week. It's alway grey and gloomy here and nothing surprises me anymore. One min the sky can be really nice and comfy and the next min, wind could be howling like no body business. Temperature fluctuate on 2 extreme ends here.

This morning I woke up to find that there is no water. It's damn sad I tell you. I have to brush my teeth with the measly amount of water the tap could give and by the time I'm done with my teeth, there is none left to wash my face. Hence, I have to make use of the drinking water available.

No water means no shower. No shower means sleepy for the whole crappy day. I was yawning throughout the whole morning while doing my stuff. It was damn bad. The following pictures shows what I did to make myself away.

Yup, glum look. There's more, so if you are sick of it you can close this window. =)

Hip hopping? Nah! break-dancing..

That is me running to the hostel. The wind is freaking cold. !!

Alright I shall end my post here and will be back soon! ^^

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Oh Oh here's another pic.

Cute anot. HAHA Cammy said I look like a terrorist but I love this pic. It's not everytime I post stupid pictures up okie~

Photo-log

2008-04-19T09:17:00.005+08:00

Alright people, I've got so many pictures to upload and I have no idea where to start. Although I still miss home very occasionally, I really like it here apart from their culture. Spitting is a Oh-so-normal sight. It's a anytime, anyhow and anywhere. Man and ladies all the same.

I am doing real fine.Meals are prepared by 2 cook and room/clothes are clean and wash by 2 younger ladies. The weather is still cold but great. The only difference is it's a Saturday, my off day and I'm up at 8am automatically. Tell me to do that back home, you'll only hear me mumbling "scoot off".

Anyway, at this point in time, if given the chance to work here, I would not mind. But somehow, it's still too early to say. Who knows by the end of 3 months I'll be sick of it and will be terribly home sicked.

Moving on to the pictures. Properly in sequence (I hope)

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Time: 3.10pm

Crap, I din realize I have that many pictures and now my hands are too numb to do anything. It's freaking freezing and I'm wearing 4 layers of long sleeves (long sleeve shirt, cardigan, wind breaker and a jacket not forgetting scuff), I'm still shaking!

After picking and choosing, I've got 61 photos!

Wee~

Ok photoshop officially hates me and It's driving me insane! I heading out and will be back. with pictures or not? We'll see I'll try to put it up asap.

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Alright, the photo is finally done. Sadly, I'm still stuck home cause it's raining!! damn! Some one buy me my YSL concealer.

Part of my job scope. Sorting out embroidery thread. It's a nightmare! Been at it for 10 days and it's not even done. Imagine the volume of it.

Sight seeing! I have no idea what's the name of this place but it's next to Suzhou museum. A garden or something. This is the very 1st time I'm seeing sakura. It's a beauty.

Intermediaries breaks at several restaurant and cafe. The resturant isn't very must the high class waiter serving restaurant. Being there make me feel like we're in huang zhu ge ge drama. Haha. Yes! I also manage to try their bing tang hu lu. Not nice 1 leh.

A gathering cause the boss is here. The man who owns it all. Japanese restaurant. Too bad I have a small appetite.

Parade! Very Chingay like and this is the ugliest Merlion I have ever seen. Anyway, fireworks here is a common sight. You get that every Friday and Saturday plus weekdays if there's VIP.

Thou shall not mock me for I've cross the bridge of knowledge making me a very knowledgeable person =)

Arighty, That's all folks! I can't believe I've been blogging for the whole day! Will be back soon and take care for the weather is insane.

Snacks

2008-04-11T23:03:00.003+08:00

weet weet!

40 sgd worth of snacks!!

Cammy!! I found your snack u bought in KOREA!! YUM!

Day 2

2008-04-08T20:57:00.005+08:00

It's Day 2 in china.

The weather is so cold. Maybe not winter cold, but it's still cold.

I like it cold rather then the sweltering warm weather we have back home. It was even raining heavily when I left the office. Hence, I'm real glad that we do not need to walk.

Anyway, here are some pictures from before.

The day before I left, My grams birthday.

China! Just some shot taken momentarily after we alight and on a 2hr journey to our destination.

Ah HA! car without car plate no.

Grey foggy afternoon.

Cold weather, wear more.

The rice cracker I love most. Stuffs here are affordable. I'm so gonna get more of this rice cracker.

Alrighty, that's all folks will post again soon.

p/ SER!! CAMMY! BED!! SIS! Mom and Dad... I miss you~~~

airport

2008-04-07T09:39:00.001+08:00

leaving is the hardest thing...

currently in airport, missing my friends and family.. I'll be fine and I'll post as soons as i get there.

=)

I know that I'm loved..

3 more days.

2008-04-04T09:49:00.003+08:00

It's FRIDAY!

Have been in the company fro 5 days.

It's been good. Real good.

Everything is so interesting and the people here are pretty nice. I would never have imagine jus one piece of shirt or pants require that many people to put it together. The work is unbelievable, makes me appreciate my clothes more even if I go shopping like crazy and cast my old clothes to the back of my wardrobe, forgotten.

3 more days, and I'll be flying off to Suzhou.

I'm excited and equally as fearful about it. seeing the workers dorm here make me wonder are we staying in places like that too? Sigh.

Worst, I have yet to finish packing and my schedule is pack to the brim. Went for flu vaccination yesterday with my mom, meeting up friends tonight, going giant tomorrow with Camilla to get some simple necessities and then on Sunday, I'll have to go visit my granddad's urn in the temple, and celebrate my gram's birthday at night.

Fuu~ What a mouth full.

Alright have to pass the internet cable to my mates since we are all sharing 1 in order to access internet in the office.

I'm just here to say that I am fine and great albeit my left arm feel achy due to the jab.

Will blog again soon ~ =)